Decisions are not always easy to make. You probably know that from your own experience.
Since I came back from England I always had a feeling that my heart was left behind, that even though I love my family and friends, It's almost like Portugal couldn't satisfy me no more. Now a year has passed and these feelings are a bit better of course, but part of it still remains and I still regret not trying harder to stay there.
The other night talking with my BFF, about the usual, that is normally how we miss England (she was also living there for a year around the same time), we decided no more! How can we live with ourselves knowing that we could've done more and chase our dreams and we didn't?
I've been praying for a year and so far the only thing that changed in my life was the experience I gained during my 6 month internship and it wasn't even payed. Also I don't have a proper job yet, with this whole crisis thing I'm not sure if I ever will! I love my friends and church but we will always be in touch and I would visit every holiday. If these feelings are still with me will it not be bad not to pursue them? can all this not be a calling from God? So we made a plan that by June/July next year we'll be working and living somewhere beetween Cambridge, London or even Belfast. It's all still very new, we still need to work for a couple of months first and in the meantime look for an apartment and a job in one of these locations. I guess it is not going to be easy but what is easy in life?
So dear friends if you have any tips, live in the UK, and know of some jobs or apartments please let me know I would appreciate it.
Have a nice day! ***Rita***